God I Miss You Guys A LOT!

ELLOOOOO ALL!!! HOW ARE YOU?? I really really miss every single blogger and every single post and I hate the fact that I'm so busy to check my blog and stuff. So how are you guys? Doing great? Good :D.

So obviously I was busy (emotionally and physically and mentally) with university. I keep hating medicine the more I study it. But then, some tiny spot in my heart keeps loving it because the more I study it, the more it makes sense!!

So you see how bipolar I am about it. Two days ago I was panicking about presenting a case. Especially when I really never even presented a history. The reason was the fact that docs always always make you feel like nothing but an idiot. You do your best, you follow a form, but somehow you manage to blab out the worst sequence of information that they're looking for. So I did nothing about it. I kept taking histories from patients but I never presented any. And Yesterday was my first scheduled case presentation. And dear Fadda still never got over her fears :). And when I have a mental monster that I don't face, I end up panicking about pretty much everything. I'll skip that part 'cause it was extremely ugly!!

So, yesterday the doctor didn't come. My panic was aggravated by the fact that I dunno who the doc is, I never seen him, not in a session nor a lecture, and I have no idea what he's like :\. So I was really really concerned. Then the session was postponed to today afternoon. And the leader said that the doc didn't come too. I HATED HIM! I wanna get DONE for God's sake! Then another doc came, and he thought he should give us diabetic foot examination. And my heart skipped a beat. I really really wanted to get done! I took my case on Sat and I have no idea how it sounded like, I just wanted to get over it!

So he was like :\, "oh really?" then he took the evaluation forms, (because Dalal was presenting with me too) and I started. 

*Wide Grin* 

THE DOCTOR WAS THE CUTEST THING EVERRRRRRRRR ♥. I wanted to hug him. The first time is not graded but still I was afraid and stuff, and he was so kind and he correcting me without making me feel like an idiot. If I was presenting this in front of other docs (i.e. Majed Mansouri) I'd probably end up sobbing and cursing and dropping out of medical school. Which was what I really thought of two days ago. 

But alhamdolillah :D. It went all well. And he gave us imaginary scores of 95/100 :). I couldn't be happier and more satisfied. Of course there's a million other thing to talk about but this is the most worth-telling thing for now. About dropping out of medical school, even though I thought really really about it, I found out that I'm simply too lazy to start over!! 

Take care and see you guys later :D. *has lots of posts to comment on!!*